Lyrics

I can’t help but be convinced
That I’ve been such a disappointment
And if you could see me now
I did not become who you expected

You really felt that were blessed
And lived your life to best reflect
A promise made but never kept
Shrouded in disillusion

And you made me an accessory
Now all I want is to be free
To be okay with the life I’ve made
Like I pretend to be

By now I should have given up
Because everything I had wasn’t enough
Still, I hesitate to pass this cup
Until someone calls my bluff

You’ll always find me in the wings
Waiting for my turn to sing
And just because it no longer stings
Doesn’t mean I’ll ever forget it

Because when you told me I’d be great
I mistook your ignorance for fate
Your inerrant voice
Affected every choice I ever made

And now I guess I should confess
It’s not that my life is meaningless
It’s just that I no longer possess
The strength to keep on searching

And I know that this acknowledgement
Among the many mistakes and marked regrets
Contends that I should clean up the mess
That I parade as virtue

So I will blend in so beautifully
Never making waves or changing speeds
I’ll just suffice to living a life
Of mediocrity