Lyrics

I recall swollen yellow eyes
The vomit crusted to your pillow side
Doctors in white coats whose hearts had died
Who called me in to see you

My precious alien
You asked me to release you from all the medicine
And I obliged but I was no Good Samaritan
I was selfish and I felt so burdened

You should have died fighting for something
Not fighting to reclaim your life from some disease
And that morning when you died
You took the best parts of me

I must apologize
You fell into this trap before you realized
That I deserve nothing more than to be vilified
But I’m afraid it’s much too late

You’re waiting here for something that doesn’t exist
Can you taste it in my mouth every time we kiss?
I’m only halfway alive
I’ve lost the best parts of me

Your eyes: A crystal blue
I’ve never felt so whole as when I hold you
And you must believe me when I tell you this is true
I owe you my life

I never thought that I could love again
Until I fell asleep holding your tiny hand
And when I wake from this dream
I’ll have the best parts of me